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books i read
05 Feb, 22:00
دلم برای ذوق کتاب خوندن توی تاریکی وقتی ده سالته و مامانت گفته لامپ‌ها باید خاموشِ خاموش باشن، و تو یه چراغ‌قوه پیدا کردی که قایمکی زیر پتوت نگه‌داری تنگ شده.
books i read
03 Feb, 16:00
ژانر مورد علاقه‌م: اندرو اسکات در حال اجرای هر نمایشنامه‌‌ایی روی استیج تئاتر
books i read
02 Feb, 09:40
یادم هست این لیست رو درست کنم فقط وقت نمی‌کنم😭 برام مهم بود در جریان باشید
books i read
20 Jan, 20:43
کاش آمریکایی بودم و شغلم فقط و فقط نویسندگی بود. کتابم توی گودریدز 1 میلیون ریت داشت و امتیازش بالای 4 بود. صبحم بلند می‌شدم دایرکتم رو چک می‌کردم می‌دیدم یه شرکت فیلم‌سازی بهم پیشنهاد ساخت فیلم از روی کتابم رو داده. دیگه مگه آدم از دنیا چی میخواد؟
books i read
18 Jan, 20:46
“When we read a text, we are either read by the text or we are in the text. Either we tame a text, we ride on it, we roll over it, or we are swallowed up by it, as by a whale. There are thousands of possible relations to a text, and if we are in a nondefensive, nonresisting relationship, we are carried off by the text. This is mainly the way it goes. But then, in order to read, we need to get out of the text. We have to shuttle back and forth incessantly. We have to try all possible relations with a text. At some point, we have to disengage ourselves from the text as a living ensemble, in order to study its construction, its techniques, and its texture.”
— from Cixous’s Reading with Clarice Lispector (the opening of the first chapter), trans. V. A. Conley
— from Cixous’s Reading with Clarice Lispector (the opening of the first chapter), trans. V. A. Conley
books i read
18 Jan, 09:36
منم از کتاب‌های سلف‌هلپ بدم میاد ولی این یکی یجوری نوشته شده بود که یجورایی بدم هم نیومد. از اینکه خیلی سریع و خلاصه رفته بود سر اصل مطلب خوشم اومد.
books i read
18 Jan, 09:36
“The way to change your life is to change the way you think, and the way to change the way you think is to change what you read.”
— 101 Essays That Will Change the Way You Think
— 101 Essays That Will Change the Way You Think
books i read
17 Jan, 21:32
some people smoke to put nicotine in their veins, others to put a cloud between them and others.
find me, andré aciman
find me, andré aciman
books i read
16 Jan, 15:32
“It's not true that I'm always thinking of H. Work and conversation make that impossible. But the times when I'm not are perhaps my worst.
For then, though I have forgotten the reason, there is spread over everything a vague sense of wrongness, of something amiss...I see the rowan berries reddening and I don't know for a moment why they, of all things, should be depressing. I hear a clock strike and some quality it always had before has gone out of the sound. What's wrong with the world to make it so flat, shabby, worn-out looking? Then I remember.”
— A Grief Observed, C. S. Lewis
For then, though I have forgotten the reason, there is spread over everything a vague sense of wrongness, of something amiss...I see the rowan berries reddening and I don't know for a moment why they, of all things, should be depressing. I hear a clock strike and some quality it always had before has gone out of the sound. What's wrong with the world to make it so flat, shabby, worn-out looking? Then I remember.”
— A Grief Observed, C. S. Lewis
books i read
15 Jan, 21:07
درباره‌ش دوباره واتپد نصب می‌کنم. لوس ایریگاری و هلن سیزو باهاتون موافقم.
books i read
15 Jan, 21:04
بهش که بیشتر فکر کنی متوجه میشی، فن فیکشن هم دقیقا همین چیزیه که هلن سیزو تاکید داشت. hear me out
سیزو می‌گفت حس شهوت توی زن‌ها سرکوب شده چون هیچکس از نیازهای زن‌ها نمینویسه. اینجوریه که درباره‌ش صحبتی نمیشه و تبدیل شده به یه تابو در جامعه.
فن گرل‌ها این رو تا ابد تغییر دادن🧚♀️💘
سیزو می‌گفت حس شهوت توی زن‌ها سرکوب شده چون هیچکس از نیازهای زن‌ها نمینویسه. اینجوریه که درباره‌ش صحبتی نمیشه و تبدیل شده به یه تابو در جامعه.
فن گرل‌ها این رو تا ابد تغییر دادن🧚♀️💘
books i read
15 Jan, 21:01
چه قدر دختر بودن سخته. یک ساعته دنبال اینم که فیلم The Other Zoey (2023) از روی چه فن‌فیکی ساخته شده چون پسرهای شخصیت اصلی وایب هری استایلز و زین ملیک میدادن و حس ششم زنانه‌م میگه که فن فیک واندی بوده.
books i read
15 Jan, 18:52
اسم مقاله رو یادم نمیاد اما یادم اومد اسکرین شاتش رو داشتم :)) مشکلات مدرن
books i read
15 Jan, 18:51
تو یه مقاله میخوندم که زن ها خیلی جاها از تاریخ پاک شدن چون نویسنده های تاریخ معمولا مرد بودن، افراد تحصیل کرده و سواد داری که توانایی و فرصت نوشتن تاریخ و ثبت وقایع رو داشتن مرد بودن. این برتری بهشون این قدرت رو میداد تا زن ها رو جوری که میخواستن به تصویر بکشن یا حتی گاهی به طور کامل حذف کنن. هلن سیزو در مقاله ی "خنده ی مدوسا" از زن ها میخواد که قلم نوشتن رو خودشون به دست بگیرن. چیزی که اصطلاحا Écriture féminine شناخته شده. سیزو معتقده تفاوت زن و مرد در بعدهای مختلف (جامعه، فیزیک، روان، ...) توی زبان مشخص میشه و روی ذهنیت خواننده تاثیر میذاره و میتونه شخصیتش و طرز دیدش به جامعه و در آخر رفتارش رو مستقیم یا غیرمستقیم تحت تاثیر قراره بده. زن ها باید بیشتر درباره ی زن ها و نیازهاشون بنویسن.
books i read
12 Jan, 08:14
“Even in the deep bush, where you could die in any number of ways, the war wasnakedly and aggressively boring. But it was a strange boredom.
It was boredom with a twist, the kind of boredom that caused stomach disorders. You'd be sitting at the top of a high hill, the flat paddies stretching out below, and the day would be calm and hot and utterly vacant, and you'd feel the boredom dripping inside you like a leaky faucet, except it wasn't water, it was a sort of acid, and with each little droplet you'd feel the stuff eating away at important organs. You'd try to relax. You'd uncurl your fists and let your thoughts go. Well, you'd think, this isn't so bad. And right then you'd hear gunfire behind you and your nuts would fly up into your throat and you'd be squealing pig squeals. That kind of boredom.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
It was boredom with a twist, the kind of boredom that caused stomach disorders. You'd be sitting at the top of a high hill, the flat paddies stretching out below, and the day would be calm and hot and utterly vacant, and you'd feel the boredom dripping inside you like a leaky faucet, except it wasn't water, it was a sort of acid, and with each little droplet you'd feel the stuff eating away at important organs. You'd try to relax. You'd uncurl your fists and let your thoughts go. Well, you'd think, this isn't so bad. And right then you'd hear gunfire behind you and your nuts would fly up into your throat and you'd be squealing pig squeals. That kind of boredom.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
11 Jan, 15:55
«داستان‌ها می‌توانند سرگرم‌کننده باشند، یا گاهی آموزشی دهند و نکته‌ای را مطرح کنند. اما برای من، نکته‌ی اساسی این است که احساسات را انتقال بدهند. اینکه به آن‌چه ما، علی‌رغم مرزها و تفاوت‌هایمان، به‌عنوان انسان‌ها در قلب‌های خود مشترک داریم اشاره کنند. در نهایت، داستان‌ها در حقیقت درباره‌ی ارتباطی هستند که در آن یک نفر به دیگری می‌گوید: «این چیزی است که من احساس می‌کنم. آیا می‌توانید درک کنید که چه می‌گویم؟ آیا شما هم چنین احساسی را تجربه کرده‌اید؟»
- کازوئو ایشی گورو، سخنرانی جایزه‌ی نوبل، ۲۰۱۷
- کازوئو ایشی گورو، سخنرانی جایزه‌ی نوبل، ۲۰۱۷
books i read
10 Jan, 16:24
خود این فیلم هم بر حسب کتاب بود (فقط حافظ شیرازی نمیدونه). دیشب دیدمش و دقیقا حس فن‌فیک‌هایی که در سال‌های جوونیم میخوندم رو میداد :)) تصمیم گرفتم در اولین فرصتی که به اندازه‌ی کافی بیکار شدم کتابش رو هم بخونم. دلم واسه این حس تنگ شده بود.
books i read
10 Jan, 14:43
When I Was One-and-Twenty
By A. E. Housman
When I was one-and-twenty
I heard a wise man say,
“Give crowns and pounds and guineas
But not your heart away;
Give pearls away and rubies
But keep your fancy free.”
But I was one-and-twenty,
No use to talk to me.
When I was one-and-twenty
I heard him say again,
“The heart out of the bosom
Was never given in vain;
’Tis paid with sighs a plenty
And sold for endless rue.”
And I am two-and-twenty,
And oh, ’tis true, ’tis true.
By A. E. Housman
When I was one-and-twenty
I heard a wise man say,
“Give crowns and pounds and guineas
But not your heart away;
Give pearls away and rubies
But keep your fancy free.”
But I was one-and-twenty,
No use to talk to me.
When I was one-and-twenty
I heard him say again,
“The heart out of the bosom
Was never given in vain;
’Tis paid with sighs a plenty
And sold for endless rue.”
And I am two-and-twenty,
And oh, ’tis true, ’tis true.
books i read
07 Jan, 18:34
به نظرتون مامان و بابای George Lucas (سازنده‌ی جنگ ستارگان) اسمش رو از روی George Lukács (فیلسوف مارکسیست) انتخاب کردن؟
books i read
07 Jan, 17:43
Interviewer: you think of yourself as a feminist?
Susan Sontag: That’s one of the few labels I’m content with. But even so . . . is it a noun? I doubt it.
https://www.theparisreview.org/interviews/1505/the-art-of-fiction-no-143-susan-sontag
Susan Sontag: That’s one of the few labels I’m content with. But even so . . . is it a noun? I doubt it.
https://www.theparisreview.org/interviews/1505/the-art-of-fiction-no-143-susan-sontag
books i read
06 Jan, 06:47
I’m happiest when most away
by Emily Bronte
I’m happiest now when most away
I can tear my soul from its mould of clay,
On a windy night when the moon is bright,
And my eye can wander through worlds of light.
When I am not, and none beside,
Nor earth, nor sea, nor cloudless sky,
But only spirit wandering wide
Through infinite immensity.
by Emily Bronte
I’m happiest now when most away
I can tear my soul from its mould of clay,
On a windy night when the moon is bright,
And my eye can wander through worlds of light.
When I am not, and none beside,
Nor earth, nor sea, nor cloudless sky,
But only spirit wandering wide
Through infinite immensity.
books i read
03 Jan, 14:13
virginia woolf's 1931 new years resolutions: “to have none. not to be tied. to be free & kindly with myself. sometimes to read, sometimes not to read. to go out, yes—but stay at home in spite of being asked. as for clothes, i think to buy good ones”
books i read
01 Jan, 21:11
happy 2005 everyone my prediction for this year is that we’re gonna get a movie adaptation of pride and prejudice by jane austen that’ll show matthew macfadyen clenching his hand as a gesture of desire that even 10 years later people are gonna think and talk about.
books i read
01 Jan, 15:49
“He liked hearing the sounds of night. Even his fatigue, it felt fine, the stiff muscles and the prickly awareness of his own body, a floating feeling. He enjoyed not being dead.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
01 Jan, 15:49
“Lieutenant Cross gazed at the tunnel. But he was not there.
He was buried with Martha under the white sand at the Jersey shore. They were pressed together, and the pebble in his mouth was her tongue. He was smiling. Vaguely, he was aware of how quiet the day was, the sullen paddies, yet he could not bring himself to worry about matters of security. He was beyond that.
He was just a kid at war, in love. He was twenty-four years old.
He couldn't help it.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
He was buried with Martha under the white sand at the Jersey shore. They were pressed together, and the pebble in his mouth was her tongue. He was smiling. Vaguely, he was aware of how quiet the day was, the sullen paddies, yet he could not bring himself to worry about matters of security. He was beyond that.
He was just a kid at war, in love. He was twenty-four years old.
He couldn't help it.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
28 Dec, 15:18
“They carried all the emotional baggage of men who might die. Grief, terror, love, longing -these were intangibles, but the intangibles had their own mass and specific gravity, they had tangible weight. They carried shameful memories. They carried the common secret of cowardice barely restrained, the instinct to run or freeze or hide, and in many respects this was the heaviest burden of all, for it could never be put down, it required perfect balance and perfect posture. They carried their reputations. They carried the soldier's greatest fear, which was the fear of blushing. Men killed, and died, because they were embarrassed not to. It was what had brought them to the war in the first place, nothing positive, no dreams of glory or honor, just to avoid the blush of dishonor. They died so as not to die of embarrassment.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
27 Dec, 13:17
به نظرتون مامان و بابای تام هاردی اسمش رو از روی توماس هاردی انتخاب کردن؟
books i read
26 Dec, 11:36
خیلی باحالید دلیل همتون واسه چیزایی که معرفی کردید اینه که چون خیلی دوسش دارید.
و می‌فهمم واقعا. valid point.
و می‌فهمم واقعا. valid point.
books i read
25 Dec, 18:35
سلام لطفا یه کتاب که در سال 2025 باید بخونم بهم معرفی کنید. اگه دوست داشتید بگید چرا
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books i read
24 Dec, 08:40
“The rest of them would fan out as security. They would sit down or kneel, not facing the hole, listening to the ground beneath them, imagining cobwebs and ghosts, whatever was down there-the tunnel walls squeezing in-how the flashlight seemed impossibly heavy in the hand and how it was tunnel vision in the very strictest sense, compression in all ways, even time, and how you had to wiggle in ass and elbows-a swallowed-up feeling and how you found yourself worrying about odd things: Will your flashlight go dead? Do rats carry rabies? If you screamed, how far would the sound carry?
Would your buddies hear it? Would they have the courage to drag you out? In some respects, though not many, the waiting was worse than the tunnel itself. Imagination was a killer.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
Would your buddies hear it? Would they have the courage to drag you out? In some respects, though not many, the waiting was worse than the tunnel itself. Imagination was a killer.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
24 Dec, 08:39
“It was my view then, and still is, that you don't make war without knowing why. Knowledge, of course, is always imperfect, but it seemed to me that when a nation goes to war it must have reasonable confidence in the justice and imperative of its cause. You can't fix your mistakes. Once people are dead, you can't make them undead.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
22 Dec, 14:37
“Forty-three years old, and the war occurred half a lifetime ago, and yet the remembering makes it now. And sometimes remembering will lead to a story, which makes it forever. That's what stories are for. Stories are for joining the past to the future. Stories are for those late hours in the night when you can't remember how you got from where you were to where you are. Stories are for eternity, when memory is erased, when there is nothing to remember except the story.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
22 Dec, 14:35
“I feel guilty sometimes. Forty-three years old and I'm still writing war stories. My daughter Kathleen tells me it's an obsession, that I should write about a little girl who finds a million dollars and spends it all on a Shetland pony. In a way, I guess, she's right: I should forget it. But the thing about remembering is that you don't forget.”
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
— The Things They Carried, Tim O’Brien
books i read
22 Dec, 14:30
تیم اوبراین درباره‌ی جنگ مینویسه. درباره‌ی جنگ آمریکا و ویتنام. وقتی ۲۱ ساله میشه برخلاف میلش توسط دولت اعزام میشه ویتنام تا بجنگه. تیم از عصبانیتش از روزی که نامه‌ی اعزامش میاد و تجربیات و خاطرات خوب و بدش میگه.
توی کتاب زندگینامه‌ش این سوال رو مطرح میکنه که آیا اصلا سرباز پیاده‌ایی که توی جنگ بوده جایگاهی داره که به کسی چیزی از جنگ درس بده؟ فقط به خاطر اینکه توی میدون جنگ حضور داشته؟ و جواب میده که شاید نه ولی میتونه داستان‌هاشو تعریف کنه.
توی کتاب زندگینامه‌ش این سوال رو مطرح میکنه که آیا اصلا سرباز پیاده‌ایی که توی جنگ بوده جایگاهی داره که به کسی چیزی از جنگ درس بده؟ فقط به خاطر اینکه توی میدون جنگ حضور داشته؟ و جواب میده که شاید نه ولی میتونه داستان‌هاشو تعریف کنه.
books i read
22 Dec, 08:32
“Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing."
— The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde
— The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde
books i read
02 Dec, 13:34
برنامه‌ایی که ازش حرف میزنه اینه:
https://youtu.be/FYuI4SFw4g0?si=deTUxPSvbi7BWwDK
https://youtu.be/FYuI4SFw4g0?si=deTUxPSvbi7BWwDK
books i read
30 Nov, 12:56
The Walk
You did not walk with me
Of late to the hill-top tree
As in earlier days,
By the gated ways:
You were weak and lame,
So you never came,
And I went alone, and I did not mind,
Not thinking of you as left behind.
I walked up there to-day
Just in the former way:
Surveyed around
The familiar ground
By myself again:
What difference, then?
Only that underlying sense
Of the look of a room on returning thence.
You did not walk with me
Of late to the hill-top tree
As in earlier days,
By the gated ways:
You were weak and lame,
So you never came,
And I went alone, and I did not mind,
Not thinking of you as left behind.
I walked up there to-day
Just in the former way:
Surveyed around
The familiar ground
By myself again:
What difference, then?
Only that underlying sense
Of the look of a room on returning thence.
books i read
29 Nov, 14:30
خیلی چیزها درباره ش هست که بدونید واقعا شخصیت جالبی بوده قطعا درباره ش بخونید⭐️ بدون شک یکی از خانوم های قدرتمند تاریخه
books i read
29 Nov, 14:29
در هر صورت کاترین تن به این ازدواج میده چون ازدواج با پادشاه قطعا منفعت های خودش رو هم برای کاترین هم برای خانواده‌ش داشت. کاترین همراه خانوم های دیگه بوک کلاب تشکیل میده که باهم انجیل رو به انگلیسی میخوندن (خوندن ترجمه‌ی این کتاب هم چیز عادی در اون زمان نبوده) و تقریبا 4 تا متن دینی مینویسه و منتشر میکنه که یکیش تا قرن 17 همچنان مورد استقبال مردم میمونه
books i read
29 Nov, 14:29
“A good hearing it is, when women become such clerks, and a thing much to my comfort, to come in mine old days to be taught by my wife,” Henry reportedly complained to an adviser.
books i read
29 Nov, 14:29
و اینا اصلا کارای آسونی برای انجام دادن نبودن، علاوه بر نظر عموم، هنری هشتم پادشاهی بود که سر دوتا زن قبلیش رو با گیوتن جدا کرده بود و خیلی لجبازتر از اینی بوده که اصلا به کسی گوش بده چه برسه به یه زن
books i read
29 Nov, 14:24
مری و الیزابت اول فقط به خاطر نتیجه ی زحمتای کاترین به لیست وارث های پادشاه اضافه میشن و حتی موفق میشه که کتابش رو با اسم خودش چاپ کنه (که اون موقع برای خانوم ها اصلا چیز عادی و امکان پذیری نبوده)
books i read
29 Nov, 14:23
داستان هنری هشتم تا همیشه یکی از خوندنی ترین داستان های تاریخ انگلیسه. از هر نظری میتونه جالب باشه. شخصیت کاترین هم به همون اندازه جالب. کاترین تنها زنی بود که از بین 6 تا زن هنری تونست از دستش جون سالم به در ببره.
books i read
29 Nov, 14:22
به جاش The Six Wives of Henry VIII از Alison Weir رو بخونید. واسه دانلود پیداش نکردم اما به طور آنلاین میتونید از اینجا قرضش بگیرید.
books i read
29 Nov, 14:22
بچه ها من الان Firebrand 2023 رو دیدم و از واقعیت و تاریخی که از هنری هشتم و کاترین ثبت شده متفاوته. دلیل نمیشه فیلم بدی باشه ولی بدونید واقعیت هم نیست. (البته که همین جمله توی چارچوب "تاریخ" جای بحث زیادی داره😂 چون هر تاریخ ثبت شده ایی رو بالاخره یه نفر نوشته و 100% حقیقت نیست ولی خب) دلیل نمیشه فیلم بدی باشه ولی اگه به منظور علمی و با هدف یادگیری میخوایید ببینیدش، بهترین انتخاب نیست.
books i read
20 Nov, 15:59
دقیقا روزایی رو یادمه که به هر دختری میرسیدیم از هم می‌پرسیدیم واندی رو می‌شناسی؟ دختر کی هستی؟ (😭😭) و بعد توضیح میداد که اول دختر کی بوده بعد چرا و چطور الان دختر یکی دیگه‌س و اخرش می‌فهمیدیم هممون یکی یه دور طرفدار یکیشون بودیم تا به این نتیجه رسیدیم نمیشه یکی رو انتخاب کرد. همین توضیح‌ها یه ساعتی طول می‌کشید و همین کافی بود که دوست بشیم. من هنوز با اکثر اون آدما در ارتباطم در حالی که خیلی وقت بود شاید حتی آهنگا و اخبارای پسرا رو دنبال نمی‌کردیم. الان یه غم خیلی بزرگی روی این همه سال دوستی و رفاقت و خاطره‌های خوبمون نشسته.
من واقعا یه بخش بزرگی از قابلیت بالام در مهارت listening رو مدیون طرز صحبت کردن و لهجه‌ی لویی و زینم :))
اون زمان خیلی کوچیکتر از اینی بودم که متوجه باشم این همه ساعت فن‌گرلی، فن‌فیک خوندن، آهنگ گوش دادن، دیدن ویدیوها و مصاحبه‌هاشون، صحبت کردن با آدمای مختلف آنلاین، آشنا شدن و پیدا کردن دوست‌های جدید ووو خیلی چیزهای دیگه چه تاثیری داره روی شخصیت اون موقعه و شخصیتم در آینده‌ایی که میشه الان، میذاره. تا همین یه ماه پیش هم خیلی بهش توجهی نکرده بودم چون واندی خیلی یهویی غیب شد و بزرگسالی و مشکلاتش خیلی سریع سرمو گرم کرد. وقتی برای تحلیل این قضیه نداشتم. از یه ماه پیش که این خبر رو شنیدم هر روز دارم بهشون و به اون روزا فکر می‌کنم. تازه دارم می‌بینم چه قدر توی هر بخش زندگیم تاثیر گذاشتن و چه قدر هنوز نقش دارن. خیلی از انتخابایی که توی زندگی بزرگسالیم انجام دادم (انتخاب رشته‌ی دانشگاهیم، مسیر شغلیم، معیارهام برای روابطم،…) بر حسب عقایدی بوده که اون دوره به طور مستقیم یا غیرمستقیم از طریق واندی یاد گرفتم. چیزایی که شاید بزرگسال‌های زندگیم نمی‌دونستن یا نمی‌تونستن بهم آموزش بدن. سعی کردم چندتا مثال پررنگش رو بنویسم ولی واقعا نمی‌تونم و زیادن. حتی نمی‌دونم بدون اینکه مسخره به نظر برسه چطور بگم. اگه دایرکشنر بودید احتمالا توی این یه ماه بهش فکر کردید و متوجهشون شدید. شاید بعدا که حالم بهتر بود.
چندسالی بود که واقعا فکر می‌کردم برای فن‌گرل بودن پیر شدم، اعصاب یا وقتی ندارم. الان می‌فهمم یه بخش عظیم از شخصیتم در مهم‌ترین دوره از بزرگ شدنم بوده و این یعنی که تا ابد قراره جزوی از من و خاطراتم باشه. وان دایرکشن هم همینطور.
Goodbyes are bittersweet, but it's not the end, I'll see your face again.
من واقعا یه بخش بزرگی از قابلیت بالام در مهارت listening رو مدیون طرز صحبت کردن و لهجه‌ی لویی و زینم :))
اون زمان خیلی کوچیکتر از اینی بودم که متوجه باشم این همه ساعت فن‌گرلی، فن‌فیک خوندن، آهنگ گوش دادن، دیدن ویدیوها و مصاحبه‌هاشون، صحبت کردن با آدمای مختلف آنلاین، آشنا شدن و پیدا کردن دوست‌های جدید ووو خیلی چیزهای دیگه چه تاثیری داره روی شخصیت اون موقعه و شخصیتم در آینده‌ایی که میشه الان، میذاره. تا همین یه ماه پیش هم خیلی بهش توجهی نکرده بودم چون واندی خیلی یهویی غیب شد و بزرگسالی و مشکلاتش خیلی سریع سرمو گرم کرد. وقتی برای تحلیل این قضیه نداشتم. از یه ماه پیش که این خبر رو شنیدم هر روز دارم بهشون و به اون روزا فکر می‌کنم. تازه دارم می‌بینم چه قدر توی هر بخش زندگیم تاثیر گذاشتن و چه قدر هنوز نقش دارن. خیلی از انتخابایی که توی زندگی بزرگسالیم انجام دادم (انتخاب رشته‌ی دانشگاهیم، مسیر شغلیم، معیارهام برای روابطم،…) بر حسب عقایدی بوده که اون دوره به طور مستقیم یا غیرمستقیم از طریق واندی یاد گرفتم. چیزایی که شاید بزرگسال‌های زندگیم نمی‌دونستن یا نمی‌تونستن بهم آموزش بدن. سعی کردم چندتا مثال پررنگش رو بنویسم ولی واقعا نمی‌تونم و زیادن. حتی نمی‌دونم بدون اینکه مسخره به نظر برسه چطور بگم. اگه دایرکشنر بودید احتمالا توی این یه ماه بهش فکر کردید و متوجهشون شدید. شاید بعدا که حالم بهتر بود.
چندسالی بود که واقعا فکر می‌کردم برای فن‌گرل بودن پیر شدم، اعصاب یا وقتی ندارم. الان می‌فهمم یه بخش عظیم از شخصیتم در مهم‌ترین دوره از بزرگ شدنم بوده و این یعنی که تا ابد قراره جزوی از من و خاطراتم باشه. وان دایرکشن هم همینطور.
Goodbyes are bittersweet, but it's not the end, I'll see your face again.
books i read
20 Nov, 15:46
عکس‌های امروز مراسم لیام باعث شد یه چیزی درونم بشکنه که نمی‌دونستم وجود داشت. تا قبل از این انگار می‌تونستم انکارش کنم و وانمود کنم رخ نداده، امروز انگار برام واقعی شد. چیزی که از دست دادم، تنها شادی نوجوونی‌م بود. عکس‌هایی که ازشون روی دیوار داشتم. پوستر و پیکسل‌ها. تمام دوست‌هایی که از فندوم پیدا کردم. فکر کنم حتی نقطه صمیمت‌ام با گلی هم اونجایی بود که تو مترو پرسید می‌دونی واندی چیه؟ زبانم رو بهتر و بیشتر از قبل خوندم که بتونم مصاحبه‌ها و آهنگ‌هاشون رو بفهمم.
واقعا ناراحتم اونقدر زنده موندم که چهار نفر دیگه رو تو مراسم ختم یکی از اعضا ببینم.
واقعا ناراحتم اونقدر زنده موندم که چهار نفر دیگه رو تو مراسم ختم یکی از اعضا ببینم.
books i read
19 Nov, 08:44
One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice- though the whole house began to tremble and you felt the old tug at your ankles. "Mend my life!" each voice cried. But you didn't stop. You knew what you had to do, though the wind pried with its stiff fingers at the very foundations, though their melancholy was terrible.
It was already late enough, and a wild night, and the road full of fallen branches and stones. But little by little, as you left their voices behind, the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds, and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do- determined to save the only life you could save.
-from devotions: the selected poems of mary oliver (2017)
It was already late enough, and a wild night, and the road full of fallen branches and stones. But little by little, as you left their voices behind, the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds, and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do- determined to save the only life you could save.
-from devotions: the selected poems of mary oliver (2017)
books i read
18 Nov, 09:18
“Godot challenges its audience to question all of the old rules and to try to make sense of a world that is incomprehensible. At the heart of the play is the theme of "coping" and "getting through the day" so that when tomorrow comes we can have the strength to continue.”
books i read
18 Nov, 07:48
“… We always find something, eh Didi, to give us the impression we exist.”
books i read
18 Nov, 07:02
“If you genuinely believe that what normally passes for reality is actually so much fiction, the most real element in the fiction you write will be the uncertainty.”
books i read
17 Nov, 08:03
جوری که این صدا متعلق به آدمای واقعی مشغول به سیاست در همین دوره‌س. آدم فکر میکنه دیالوگی فیلمی چیزی باشه. خیلی سخته باور کنی واقعیه. البته سخت که نیست، درست‌ترش اینه که بگی دلت نمیخواد باور کنی با گذر این همه سال همچنان اینجاییم.
books i read
13 Nov, 20:32
ما توی مدارسمون sex education نداشتیم، ولی با خوندن فن‌فیک‌های واندی هم سرانه‌ی مطالعه رو با اون سن کممون بالا می‌بردیم هم جای خالی این درس رو پر می‌کردیم
books i read
13 Nov, 20:31
درباره‌ش افتر رو می‌بینم (چون فکر می‌کردم از واندی گذر کردم هیچوقت ندیدمش)
books i read
13 Nov, 20:31
خیلی ببخشید ولی من phantom رو خیلی جدی دوست داشتم و هنوزم با اینکه دقیق جزئیاتش رو یادم نمیاد، به نظرم ایده‌ی کلی جالبی داشت😭 ممنونم از گرلی‌های توی اینترنت
books i read
13 Nov, 20:19
Re-entering my die hard directioner phase in my mid 20s wasn't on my 2024 bingo list but here we are
books i read
12 Nov, 19:04
honestly i get marianne and connel. go back to him. go back to her. go back until you finally have the courage for seeing them as what they really are. go back until you finally hate them. and if you still don’t, then that might be the one you love but you can never have. that person might be your the one that got away. very sad indeed but at least, you’re at peace now.
books i read
09 Nov, 09:28
Fear not to speak your thought.
Words are but holy as the deeds they cover; A priest who has forsworn the God he
serves, A judge who makes Truth weep at his decree.
A friend who should weave counsel, as I now,
But as the mantle of some selfish guile,
A father who is all a tyrant seems, — Were the profaner for his sacred name.
Words are but holy as the deeds they cover; A priest who has forsworn the God he
serves, A judge who makes Truth weep at his decree.
A friend who should weave counsel, as I now,
But as the mantle of some selfish guile,
A father who is all a tyrant seems, — Were the profaner for his sacred name.
books i read
06 Nov, 14:11
یه بهونه‌ایی که همیشه داریم برای روزانه مطالعه نکردنمون، وقته. همیشه میگیم وقت نداریم. خودم که اینجوریم.
توی medium اکانت بسازید. هر روز بهتون یه مقاله‌ی ۲-۶ دقیقه‌ایی نوتیف میده. فقط کافیه مشخص کنید چه مطالبی رو دوست دارید.
اگرم میخوایید بنویسید و خونده بشید هم پلتفرم جالبیه.
به قول غریب «ممکنه همه [مطالب] درست نباشن ولی همه از تجربیات خود آدم هان.»
منو یاد وبلاگایی میندازه که کوچیکتر بودم داشتم.
توی medium اکانت بسازید. هر روز بهتون یه مقاله‌ی ۲-۶ دقیقه‌ایی نوتیف میده. فقط کافیه مشخص کنید چه مطالبی رو دوست دارید.
اگرم میخوایید بنویسید و خونده بشید هم پلتفرم جالبیه.
به قول غریب «ممکنه همه [مطالب] درست نباشن ولی همه از تجربیات خود آدم هان.»
منو یاد وبلاگایی میندازه که کوچیکتر بودم داشتم.
books i read
04 Nov, 19:36
“How strange it is. We have these deep terrible lingering fears about ourselves and the people we love. Yet we walk around, talk to people, eat and drink. We manage to function. The feelings are deep and real. Shouldn’t they paralyze us? How is it we can survive them, at least for a while? We drive a car, we teach a class. How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise.”
White Noise by Don Delillo
White Noise by Don Delillo
books i read
03 Nov, 13:32
“For I have known them all already, known them all:
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?”
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?”
books i read
03 Nov, 13:19
“Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.”
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.”
books i read
03 Nov, 12:17
وقتی فقط ۲۲ ساله‌ش بوده این شعر رو منتشر میکنه!
شبیه اونجا از زنان کوچکم که ایمی مارچ میگه im a failure و لوری بهش میگه
that's quite a statement to make at 20 😞🎀
شبیه اونجا از زنان کوچکم که ایمی مارچ میگه im a failure و لوری بهش میگه
that's quite a statement to make at 20 😞🎀
books i read
02 Nov, 21:09
“I think sometimes... I am not a woman, but the light that falls on this gate, on this ground. I am the seasons, I think sometimes, January, May, November; the mud, the mist, the dawn.”
— The Waves, Virginia Woolf
— The Waves, Virginia Woolf
books i read
02 Nov, 21:07
"The truth is, I often like women. I like their unconventionality. I like their completeness. I like their anonymity."
— A Room of One's Own, Virginia Woolf
— A Room of One's Own, Virginia Woolf
books i read
02 Nov, 08:35
“All men delight in sensual luxury;
All men enjoy revenge, and most exult
Over the tortures they can never feel. Flattering their secret peace with others'
pain.”
All men enjoy revenge, and most exult
Over the tortures they can never feel. Flattering their secret peace with others'
pain.”
books i read
01 Nov, 17:11
و یه مقاله پیدا کردم که همین رو درموزیک ویدیوهای تیلور سویفت بررسی میکنه =))))
books i read
01 Nov, 17:11
هروقت هرکی بخاطر دیدن فیلمای مارول یا آهنگای گرلی‌پاپ مسخره‌م می‌کرد با این توجیه‌ش می‌کردم که تو باید چیزای بد ببینی تا بفهمی چه چیزی خوبه. چون خوب و بد بودن معیارهای نسبین. فیلم خوب فقط خوبه چون از یه فیلم دیگه بهتره. اگه هیچوقت کار بد نبینی نمی‌فهمی چی خوبه.
الان فهمیدم چیزی که می‌گفتم دقیقا تئوری Binary Oppositions دریدا بوده. مهشاد فیلسوف باشه
الان فهمیدم چیزی که می‌گفتم دقیقا تئوری Binary Oppositions دریدا بوده. مهشاد فیلسوف باشه
books i read
01 Nov, 09:33
ناتانائیل هاتورن هم بعد از دیدنش The Marble Faun رو مینویسه که من نخوندمش پس حرفی ندارم🧍♀️
books i read
01 Nov, 09:27
منبع الهام اولیه‌ی شلی برای نوشتن این نمایشنامه هم همین اثر بوده و کلا با خانواده‌ی چنچی ابسسد میشه و تو ایتالیا نوشتنشو شروع و تموم میکنه.
books i read
01 Nov, 09:20
جالبه که اول گفته بودن نقاشش گیدو رنی بوده ولی سال ۲۰۲۱ مشخص میشه نقاشش یه خانم بوده به اسم گینورا کانتروفولی (طبق معمولا خانم‌ها از تاریخ پاک میشن)
books i read
01 Nov, 09:18
The Portrait of Beatrice Cenci housed in the Galleria Nazionale d’Arte Antica of Palazzo Barberini, Rome
books i read
01 Nov, 08:26
Beatrice: I have a weight of melancholy thoughts.
And they forebode, — but what can they
forebode
Worse than I now endure ?
And they forebode, — but what can they
forebode
Worse than I now endure ?
books i read
31 Oct, 15:16
missing the time when i used to obsessively read books in less than a day and not worry about a single thing in life
books i read
30 Oct, 07:05
“He looked at me like I was crazy.
Most of my lovers do, and that's partly why they love me, and partly why they leave.”
— Jeanette Winterson
Most of my lovers do, and that's partly why they love me, and partly why they leave.”
— Jeanette Winterson
books i read
24 Oct, 12:27
“…Maybe Sylvia Plath wasn’t crazy, she was just cold.”
-Lorelai Girlmore
-Lorelai Girlmore
books i read
24 Oct, 12:11
“Adults and children read books in different ways. Grown-ups read for entertainment whereas youngsters read to learn about life. ”
Excerpt From
A Little Princess’s Introduction by
Adeline Yen Mah
Excerpt From
A Little Princess’s Introduction by
Adeline Yen Mah
books i read
21 Oct, 12:50
«حسرت می‌خورد به چرخی که در شبانه‌روز حتما می‌گشت و او در هیچ کجای آن جا نداشت، به سکوت خو می‌گرفت و آن‌قدر بی‌حضور شده بود که همه فراموشش کرده بودند. انگار به دنیا آمده بود که تنها باشد.»
— سمفونی مردگان نوشته‌ی عباس معروفی
— سمفونی مردگان نوشته‌ی عباس معروفی
books i read
19 Oct, 18:56
"There is no shame in what you are feeling, Harry," said Dumbledore's voice. "On the contrary... the fact that you can feel pain like this is your greatest strength."
— Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, J.K. Rowling
— Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, J.K. Rowling
books i read
18 Oct, 07:47
فکر می‌کردم از دوران وان دایرکشن گذر کردم ولی از دیروز تا حالا فقط غم حس می‌کنم.
books i read
14 Oct, 07:11
وقتی تیلور سویفت گفت There’s escape in escaping چون دقیقا داشت درباره‌ی من و کتابام حرف می‌زد.
books i read
12 Oct, 21:54
کوت کنید بگید شما درامای دریک-کندریک رو بیشتر دوست داشتید یا افلاطون-ارسطو؟
books i read
12 Oct, 10:34
Similarly in his letter to Max Brod in 1922, Kafka writes:
“But what is it to be a writer? Writing is a sweet, wonderful reward, but its price? During the night the answer was transparently clear to me: it is the reward for service to the devil. This descent to the dark powers, this unbinding of spirits by nature bound, dubious embraces and whatever else may go on below, of which one no longer knows anything above ground, when in the sunlight one writes stories. Perhaps there is another kind of writing. I only know this one, in the night, when anxiety does not let me sleep, I only know this one. And what is devilish in it seems to me quite clear. It is the vanity and the craving for enjoyment, which is forever whirring around oneself or even around someone else… and enjoying it. The wish that a naïve person sometimes has: “I would like to die and watch the others crying over me,” is what such a writer constantly experiences: he dies (or he does not live) and continually cries over himself.”
“But what is it to be a writer? Writing is a sweet, wonderful reward, but its price? During the night the answer was transparently clear to me: it is the reward for service to the devil. This descent to the dark powers, this unbinding of spirits by nature bound, dubious embraces and whatever else may go on below, of which one no longer knows anything above ground, when in the sunlight one writes stories. Perhaps there is another kind of writing. I only know this one, in the night, when anxiety does not let me sleep, I only know this one. And what is devilish in it seems to me quite clear. It is the vanity and the craving for enjoyment, which is forever whirring around oneself or even around someone else… and enjoying it. The wish that a naïve person sometimes has: “I would like to die and watch the others crying over me,” is what such a writer constantly experiences: he dies (or he does not live) and continually cries over himself.”
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