If you live in a paradigm where you get a job first, then someone tells you what to do, and your manager is responsible to extract work out of you - that’s not happening.
Even if you find that job, you will NOT like it. Your labour, effort, time, is merely a commodity for a business like that. It is a recipe for an unhappy, low paid job.
There is another type of job - where you are the leader. What does it look like?
You know how you can help a business in a certain area. You know businesses have a certain problem and you can solve it.
You have solved it before.
You think a lot about how to solve that problem even better.
You have a demonstrable track record on solving that problem.
And that problem is a burning problem for some businesses.
And now suddenly everyone wants to hire you to solve that problem. Not as a commodity, but as a partner, as a saviour, as an answer to their prayers.
That is the position you want to be in.
What would it take to get there? 6 months of being obsessed with learning to solve one problem? What is it going to be? What problem will you solve?