It’s Not an AuDHD Thing

i see a hozier reference -> i repost
it's that simple

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its 4 1 3 5 2

1, 4, 2, 5, 3

Yes it's full and beautiful 🥰🥰🥰

Here is a present for you

your fav admin is too busy writing a project about american student loans (im gonna pass out of exhaustion)

well, good morning to y'all too i guess 😳

No memes today.

Go vote if you haven't.

Go in groups if you can, alert trusted friends otherwise.

If you are in line when the polls close, DO NOT LEAVE FOR ANY REASON.

Poll workers will NEVER under any circumstances tell you to leave on election night. Anyone doing so is committing a felony.

If you have not yet registered, you may request a provisional ballot.

Good luck.

And don't watch the news.

Flatly, we are not going to have an answer as to who won the election tonight. It is just not going to happen.

Stress checking the polling stats is only going to make your night worse.

Spend time with people you care about. Do something you enjoy.

Avoid alcohol. It will only make you feel worse, trust me.

~Sock Mind

your fav admin is brain dead (too many disruptions to the work routine cause them to shutdown)
will return tomorrow

it's been a year and a little bit and im so in love ok goodnight

im down so bad i want to dedicate hozier songs to them

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new replies here 🥰

got a shit ton of new stuff, replies wont be as active tho, imma smoke weed and drink a lot of coffee

tldr: everything sucks, if you got a stable job, good for you and take care of yourself

this rant was brewing for a long time, ever since i was in and out of jobs this whole summer. and so now after another breakdown at work, i feel like i really have to fucking talk about this.

now i understand why so many neurodivergent people are unemployed. its fucking insane.
first of all, one has to learn how interviews and applications work, go through rounds of "we'll call you back", learn to sell themselves and learn how not to take everything literally especially when it comes to "our team is very friendly" or "we have great corporate culture", etc. this is already draining enough. and the first catch is that when you sell and present yourself to them and play by their rules, they believe you and you have to stick to that version of yourself at least during your first month of work. meanwhile, they lose their selling masks immediately and you get hit with the reality of how workplace really works. and yall can already guess how much mental toll that takes on a neurodivergent person. because if we present ourselves as we are during the interview, no one would fucking take us, a corporate world doesnt care about and reciprocate our need for transparency, openness and showing the true reality without surprises.

and then we get to the whole work process and adaptation in a new place. this is crucial because for most neurodivergent people, if we kinda like the job that we got, it starts a new dopamine rush: we're interested in it, we learn things quickly. but it shouldn't be a secret that we need more time to adapt, more than required for a neurotypical person. and it depends on a shit ton of things: trying to sustain a work-life balance, new colleagues, new place, new routines, everything and anything all at the same time. and neurotypicals rarely understand this, for them its just an exciting thing and they can change things around it relatively easy. especially when those neurotypicals are your bosses. and dont even get me started on the initial "1 month after" tests of motivation, performance reviews and feedback, etc. work for neurodivergent people isn't just work, it's a new version of society that we have to get accustomed to. and there's so much fucking masking involved during all of this.

and here we face the dychotomy of "i should really achieve something and get a career because it's cool and then I'll get money so now I have to work a lot so it pays off later" AND "I should be more gentle to myself and take care of things slowly, at least showing up to work is enough". THESE THINGS DO NOT COEXIST. especially when you have dreams and goals for a leading position or something that is well respected in the corporate world. demanding jobs are scary as shit because nobody wants to deny that you literally have to work 24/7 and not get paid enough. for them it's just a natural step in building a career. you have to bust your ass for nothing to then suddenly get lucky and get praise and only then will you be able to chill for a little bit. or, even worse, not, because you already presented yourself as a super productive worker and now if you suddenly stop and take a step back, your performance will get worse and people will start asking questions. this is officially insane

so I genuinely now understand why so many mentally ill and neurodivergent people cannot handle a workplace at all. you can try as hard as you can but it will never be enough, there are no accommodations, the world doesnt take us into account at all. no matter where you work or what you do unless youre in freelance and able to choose your own pace and not worry about your income or a boss that will micromanage you if something happens. nobody in the corporate world cares. they only care about how much money you make for the company.

and that is truly depressing and i struggle to understand how im supposed to cope with that

thats it, goodnight

and the worst thing is that its probably just another bpd episode. because its so fucking physically and mentally painful, but i know that in 30 minutes all will be left of it is just an aftertaste and emptiness

i love hating everything and seeing no point in my hopes and dreams because im too disabled to ever properly function in this world, so I'll never make anything of myself and will be stuck in this perpetual cycle of gaining progress and then it all disappearing in a single day

october fucking sucked, cant wait for seasonal depression november

Ugh

Oh boy I sure hope nothing bad happens today

What if we kissed and cuddled outside the gay cat clinic 🥺👉👈🩷